to be honest, i have nothing to write. no inspiration, no nothing. but i found the best song ever! i just love the lyrics. but that's all i have to say for today.
i feel so terrible right now, what is that thing with guys that they don't talk to you anymore and then think that everything is alright! well, hell no, it's not alright! but the worst thing is finding things out from friends, he didn't have the guts to tell me himself, so i had to find out from my friends. now i know he traded me in for a child of 13! like what the hell is wrong with him, he is almost 18! she just started high school and he is done with it. i feel so betrayed, cause she was actually a friend of mine (i gave her horse riding lessons). and now he's calling her in the middle of the night and nagging her to do things. well, it's true what my best friend said; you couldn't give him what he wanted (sex) and she can. it's so weak of him and i'm so angry! i could punch him if i saw him! any advise for keeping my angry in?
let me tell you a story, it's been over a year since i had this one guy, but he stopped talking to me and we never saw each other, so that ended. then i was so sick of guys, i didnt want them anymore. so i waited, for the right guy to come around the corner, and after a year of waiting he was finally there, at least that's what i thought. it seems now that he was just the same type of guy, we hardly talk en see each other, so i guess this is gonna end too. where are the good guys on this planet? i just seem to get stuck with the same type of guys over and over again, they break my heart, the next one comes and also breaks my heart. this is not oke. i just want a nice guy, that treats me right and talks even when he's down, tells me whats bothering him so i can help him. please let me know when you're here.
With your words you pull me in, I always lose I just can't win And though I see my heart is blind, it gives in every time You've got me on constant repeat, I need a cure or a remedy 'cause if I stay there won't be, nothing left for me...
somehow i can't find you.
I'm in this fight, and I'm swinging And my arms are getting tired I'm trying to beat this emptiness but I'm running out of time I'm sinking in the sand , And I can't barely stand And I'm lost in this dream , I need you to hold me I'm scared of lonely
I try to be patient, but I'm hurting deep inside And I can't keep waiting, I need comfort late at night And I can't find my way, won't you lead me home Cause I'm lost in this dream, I need you to hold me I'm scared of lonely
And I'm scared of being the only Shadow I see along the wall And I'm scared the only heart beat I hear the beating is my own And I'm scared of being alone I can't seem to breath when I am lost In this dream, I need you to hold me I'm scared of lonely
